From PCOS, Infertility, Drug & Alcohol Use to Clean, Sober, Gorgeous, and Expecting! My Journey...
😊❤️ For those of you with #ovaries out there (and for those who aren’t bothered by period talk and ovaries).... 💁🏻♀️💁🏽♂️
22 years ago I was diagnosed with #PCOS (PolyCystic Ovarian Syndrome) [syndrome details at bottom of post] ...
💉 At the time I was told there is no cure and that doctors didn’t know what caused it. I remember being told I would likely not be able to #conceivenaturally but MIGHT be able to with the aid of pharmaceuticals, surgeries, both, or I could try surrogacy or even adoption.
Honestly, at the time I was glad I couldn’t have children. I was partying a lot and didn’t want the extra burden. But that didn’t mean I wasn’t worried that it may still be “possible” for me to get pregnant.
So for 20+ years I worried if the reason I wasn’t on my period regularly (every 9-12 months or so) was because I was pregnant. And for those 20+ years I probably spent thousands 💰 💰 💰 on take-home pregnancy tests, just so I could be sure.
The tests were always negative. ⛔️ And as the years ticked by, that made me more and more eager to find out “what was wrong with me”. I really wanted to find out how to fix me, instead of wallowing in the stories of “I’m broken” and “There is something wrong with me”. 🧩
They say when you get older, things change; right? We are all so blessed - truly - to have our lives be our blueprint for our healing. To be here to learn and to grow from our mistakes and our challenges ❤️
My life, for those of you who know me and have been following my posts and have taken my workshops, has been FULL of drug and alcohol abuse, eating disorders, and self-loathing and other destructive behaviors. It wasn’t until I found myself at my MOST miserable and sick that I made a choice to finally HEAL myself. In mind, body, and spirit. 💫
Our first baby miscarried after about 8 weeks. I was devastated. 😭 AND... I found myself #hopeful at the same time. ❤️
Only a few weeks later we tried again and today I am a VERY pregnant Mommy-To-Be at just barely 6 Months along, and glowing, at 42 years old!
They call these babies “Rainbow Babies” - the ones which are conceived after the previous life which tried to grow before this one was lost to miscarriage. I like that...Rainbow Baby ❤️🌈
So... if you’re still reading this, this message might just be for you. It’s never too late to start #listening to your inner #wisdom. That little voice inside that keeps urging you to do the thing that would lift you up the most and lead you to your own version of healing...
That little voice is #relentless you know. 😊❤️ So it might just be time to tune in.
For those of you who are curious about symptoms of PCOS, read below. If you think you may have PCOS, be sure to get an evaluation from your doctor:
What are common signs and symptoms of polycystic ovary syndrome (PCOS)? Common PCOS signs and symptoms include the following: * Irregular menstrual periods—Menstrual disorders can include absent periods, periods that occur infrequently or too frequently, heavy periods, or unpredictable periods. * Infertility—PCOS is one of the most common causes of female infertility. * Obesity—Up to 80% of women with PCOS are obese. * Excess hair growth on the face, chest, abdomen, or upper thighs—This condition, called hirsutism, affects more than 70% of women with PCOS. * Severe acne or acne that occurs after adolescence and does not respond to usual treatments * Oily skin * Patches of thickened, velvety, darkened skin called acanthosis nigricans * Multiple small fluid-filled sacs in the ovaries